Motivation?

So, this whole changing my life thing isn't going as planned. In theory I want to get stuff done, but it's so much easier to sit around doing nothing, when I should be doing homework or other productive things. I got home from school at 6:45 ish yesterday and didn't do any of my homework. I kept thinking that I needed to do it, but I watched t.v. and talked to my roomate and went on the computer---now I'm quite behind. I was hoping I could get everything done before my 5 pm class, but I couldn't.

It's not been going well. I didn't work at the ceramics studio this weekend, my mom cleaned up my room for me, I missed class this morning, and am missing a class right now, which has a homework assignment I should have emailed to my teacher by 5 pm. Also, I only did 2 drawings for my drawing class yesterday, I should have had 3 or 4 on 11X17 paper.

So, here's the reason I missed class this morning--- I didn't get ready fast enough and missed the bus. Here's why I'm not at class now---I was teaching a class (after school program--1st day) and I didn't leave there until 4:25 and my class is at 5 pm. I didn't have time to make the bus. Also, I just don't feel like going--- I'm really sneezy and a bit sick, also I want to get the homework assignment for that class (was due at 5) done, even though the highest grade I can make is a 75 turning it in late. Also that class is from 5-9 and I have homework for another class that I need to do..

I COULD HAVE DONE THIS STUFF LAST NIGHT OR LAST WEEKEND AND NOW STUFF IS LATE AND I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME---BEING A SLACKER IS A BAD CHOICE.

Anyways, I think I need to redouble my efforts and give it another go. It doesn't make me happy to waste my time and not get stuff done---it's just easier.

I think my problem is that I'm a bit lazy and somtimes actually scared to do my homework, b/c I think it's going to be hard or somthing--which it usually isn't all that hard.

Anyways, I'll post again in a couple days and hopefully I'll be BACK ON TRACK WITH THIS WHOLE LIFE THING.

BTW- I'm a senior with a gpa of 3.22--- so although I slack off, I do enough to at least keep above a B average. I just wait till the last minute and stress myself out. Although, this time I'm actually turning in an assignment late, which is definitley going to hurt me in the long run.