Time for a change

Ok, so I've decided to chance my entire approach to life and to chronicle it here everyday (hopefully). I've spent my life waiting for somthing to happen, sitting back, feeling sorry for myself. Well, I'm done with all that and today's the very first day.

This picture of my extremely messy room is a symptom of my need for change.

I met a person on Friday who lives his life the way I want to live mine, with passion and purpose. I don't wanna be the person I've been for the last 22 years any more- an idealistic person who thinks we need change, but doesn't do anything to bring it about. If I beleive in it- I

wanna LIVE IT instead of just talking about it (i do realize that I am talking about it right now, but I'm not just going to talk about it)

Sadly, I spent most of yesterday playing Mario, watching tv, and thinking about the stuff I should have been doing---cleaning my room, doing homework, reading---but I just wasted my whole night and when I got into bed I started thinking about how I live and decided I needed to change and I wanted to chronicle it, hopefully writing about it will keep me on track and I won't get too distracted.

I'm sure you've seen this quote by Jack Keroac before:

"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved. The ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars."

This quote is inspiring---to live life like you mean it. Stop talking about what you want to do, could have done, or a going to do. Just do it!

My first order of business to clean up my life, is to clean up my room. I havn't even entirely unpacked since I got back from Charleston over a month ago. It's pretty much a disaster in there. I am starting to beleive that if your room/apt. is messy then you're life probably is too

Now, a list of what I want to do for today:
-clean room and bathroom, grocery shop w/ mom, throw cylinders at the clay studio, go see waterfalls, go to a tag sale( i need a desk adn shelves bad), do at least one drawing for Arch Drawing class!

My method of starting is to actually do everything on my to do list-- It's a good place to start I think and I've never changed my life before so I'm not sure how to go about it---maybe I'll buy a self help book too---my sister seems to think they can be helpful?