I've had a knot in my stomach and haven't been able to eat a normal amount of food since I quit my job on Tuesday night. I did finally tell my dad what I did in a text message (cowardly, right?) on Friday. He was not angry with me, as I expected he would be- whew! He said he didn't understand, as I had told him earlier on Tuesday that I would give the job a few weeks or a month and then reassess the situation...and then later that same day- I quit.
Anyways, he was understanding and I feel like I'm starting to be able to talk to him as less of an authority figure and more of just a person who cares about me, which is much better.
He came to visit me yesterday with a trunk full of groceries- so much food...it was so nice of him. I don't want him to ever HAVE to buy me groceries though, and I'm still very worried about what to do next.
Things I am worried about: This knot in my stomach is being caused by a variety of different worries: (I really do like bullet points and parentheses btw)
- I am worried about money and finding another job
- I am worried that the new job I do find will be just as bad as the old jobs (if not worse)
- I am worried that people will judge me when they find out I quit my new job after just 2 days...and think I'm really dumb and irresponsible (sometimes I think I'm dumb and irresponsible too)
- I am worried that even though I want to find my passion in life, that I won't find it and I'll just keep living my life without direction
- I am worried about being unhappy forever if I don't find my Passion
Luckily- the knot in my stomach and worries have subsided a bit- I think having told some people what I did, blogging, planning, and time have helped!
My next post will go over my Plans in depth on what I think are the next moves in both finding a job to make money and finding my direction/passion moving forward.
Wish me Luck!!!
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